You know, Facebook is so powerful. I met new fantastic, fun people from Facebook, and I got to catch up with people whom I have not seen for years.

One of them, was my god sister. Whom, I have been trying to catch for many years.

After more than 8 years of lost contact, I finally get to meet up with Tina,(my god sister since I was in primary school) last Thursday. She changed so much (or so I remembered her differently?) I remembered her as a person who is quiet, conservative, and intelligent. Now, she gave me the impression of witty, still intelligent, approachable, and chatty. but somehow, she has the sad light in her eyes.

she flew down from Australia for a short trip in Malaysia. It was great catching up with her. She migrated to Australia while I was still in primary 5 (then she was in secondary year 2). Then, I still dont really know what migration means. She keep telling me that we can still write to each other. Email each other or something. I couldnt understand what she meant then. I was still a kid without a computer!!! But I remembered telling myself that I will not be able to see her for a long long time.

She has the Australian accent tagging on, and speaks fluently, expressing herself without a single glinch. She shows every single sign of a foreign person. But surprisingly, we can still chat and talked from a topic to another , make each other laugh.Before that, I was nervous that we will run out of topic. Haha!

We shared about our lifes, trying to fill up the gap of more than 8 years. It was difficult to vomit all the facts out in 2-3 hours. And she being away for so long, does feel abit like stranger.. But I remember one of her email clearly.

While I was struggling with my depressed moments some 10 years ago, I shared with her in one of the emails how I am being eaten up by depression. she wrote about how she commited suicide and went in and out of mental hospital to cure her depression. while I wrote about my darkest secret, she wrote about how she couldnt cope up with the unhappiness feelings, mostly from bad relationships. then, I was in my 3rd relationship, and I was hitting ground zero for bad relationships + alot of bad scars from others. She was the closest I could get to express my feelings. And she does made me feel good for pouring out. I hope I made her the same.

We lost contact after 2 years of emailing. She was uncontactable. She just wont reply her emails (I later found out that she lost her password and she dont know how to get back to me). I learned to move on. I learned to be stronger. I learned to let go slowly. I still feel the pain in me now, when I thought of those scars. But I am ok. I cried sometimes for no good reasons..but after that, I feel better. I admit, I do still feel the fear. That anger, the hurt. But it is not as much as the years before that.

And then I was constantly thinking of her these past few years. Thinking how is she and where is she now. Whether she’s married, she has kids… And fate brought her and me together again. She first found me in Friendster. And I was excited! And I found out she’s in Facebook too! double whammy!

I suppose, when you think hard on what you want, you will get it eventually. Just the matter of how.

I am glad she’s better now too. She met a great guy who is crazy over her. And she’s happy with him.

But I sensed she’s scared. She asked me if she should follow her heart or follow what her mind said.I told her,” Just follow your heart and enjoy your time with him. We live once, and we deserve to make ourselves happier”.

I hope she’s happy. And I look forward to see happy pictures from her.