I was at the gym yesterday evening, after 1 month plus of dissapearing from being “healthy” myself. Frankly, I had to drag myself over yesterday. I wasnt so motivated then to exercise. The passion in doing it just..”poof”,… dissapear! I had to constantly remind myself how the tummy is slowly budging out, the thighs are getting odd looking with that extra cellulites building up around it. And how my biceps muscles are dropping. Can you imagine? I have to feed in negative thoughts to myself in order for me to go to the gym! Haha! Think back, I wanna laugh at myself for doing such thing. But it helps me to get my ass moving and hit the gym again.

My one to one training ended last year, November. Got used to a few ways of weight liftings and stamina building. I did just what I can remember from that 30 course training. There are temptations to continue that one-to-one training. I must say that the training does help me to lose and tone up. Seriously, I do feel out of shape now. Haha.

After the 1 hour of self torturing, I went around the mall to see what I could grab for dinner. I ended up standing in front of the juice stall in Jusco. I hated bittergourd for my entire life. Hated it to guts. I couldnt understand why in the world, there’s such Bitter food! Yeah yeah. But guess what I ordered? “Sir, 1 bittergourd + apple, please!” Haha. My man would have been so happy to hear this. I actually ordered this drink without realizing, and finished it up while complaining to myself how bitter it is!

Just when I felt ugly, fat, and that I just tortured myself with the drink that I thought unbearable, I was approached by a foreign man, who said this very directly to me: “You are so beautiful”. And he walked away.

I was stumped with what he said to me. I just ignored him and walked on. Just then it hit me. If I were in a foreign western country, I would have said “Thank you.” as well. But since I am here, in a country where talking to stranger is “weird” and is labelled as “with intention”, I open up my “protection shield” when he walked near me.

Even so, I must say that he made my day. Just when I thought I am not beautiful, he came up to me and told me otherwise. *smile*