“crying does not make you weak, neither does it make you any stronger. It is just a way to release. You have to choose between blaming yourself, or improving yourself. You know your life graph is now going up, it is either you make it continue going up  or you make it go down.”

 There’s so many things I want to write in here. So many things happened in 1 month time. Crying has been my only solutions to my problems recently. It was the easiest method to so-called make me feel better. I felt that it was so much easier to cry than to face it like an adult. Denial, you can say that. I am not denying that I was denying the truth, the fact that it will never go according to my way, but for me to get used to it, and moved on stronger.

Like what was quoted above, it is really entirely my choice to make the best out of everything. (saying “make what I want to happen” just dont sound right anymore)

I will try to recap one by one. Slowly and painfully. What has been bothering me.

“Begin with the end in the mind” – Abuga!, 14 September 2007